Sunday, April 29, 2007
hey there.
well, it is a long time since the last time i post a blog
hmm.. wat should i say here?
i just discharged from hospital again
:P
k. i have a urine infection for 1 month
firstly i thought it was just normal
and i think it comes and it goes
but it is getting worse
in fact, it affect my whole body
again this is the time where i face life and death
i could say this is the worst experience that i have ever had
i have a headache and a very bad cough
and also block and runny nose
and a high fever with the temperature of 39.8 degress celcius
and i have a spine problem which causes me to lie down the bed
and also kidney..
thats y i say that i am facing life and death
but through this experience,
i could see who is my true friend or should i say my true love
most of my friend came and visit me
some guys give me sweet things
some friends they don't even care about me
which make me maybe avoid them a bit
or just don really talk to them now
the worst thing is, i nvr come to school for more than one week
and exam is just around the corner
last fridae was the mid year exam
on that dae, i have english paper 1 and paper 2..
and and
i had a new guy already
i could see that he is very caring
and he meet my mother before
and my mother like him also
haha.
we are together on the date 19 april 2007
the dae when i admitted in the hospital
haha.
well, i choose him bcoz he is supporting
matured-thinking
and i think he is a suitable guy
lets not talk about that
now i at the darusalam mosque
with my two brothers
hashaf and firdaus
well, just now we had a meeting about the family dae
and i have to go home before mahgrib
gosh. i dunnoe wats wrong wif my mum
she keep believing in the things that we are not supposed to believe
there are some questions in my head
in fact a lot of questions
firsly, y so many guys wanna be my boyfriend?
is like as if i am the only gal in this world
secondly, can i catch up in my studies?
i've been absent for one week.
and it is a waste of time in the hospital
even though i ask my mum to bring my books
i still feel left out
and i dun do enough to face the mid year exam
thirdly, y yusof left me just like that?
i felt hurt
so hurt especially in the hospital
i contact him a lot of times
there is one time i call
i think he click the wrong button
he picked the phone but after that he rejected straight away.
i was like ..
y?
that is the other reason y i accepted firdaus
so, i really hope he doesn't behave like yusof
i mean like
me and yusof have been together for 10 months
and he just left me like that
during the time in the hospital
i just can't stop crying every night
not only i am sicked
but i am emotionally sicked too
it is a critical time
and i really mean it..
but that critical time it comes and it goes.
i know God is testing me
But no matter what,
this is just a test
With praying and remembering God
I am sure that i can walk to the correct path
insya allah
i think that is all for todae.
btw, i change my email address..
:))
switgerl92@hotmail.com
do add me k!
both msn and friendster!
%! just leave me alone.
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